Change can be good, change can be bad,
Change can make you happy, change can make you sad,
Change isn’t always necessary, but change is sometimes needed.
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A lot of things are on the horizon for me now. Since I got denied for SSI for the 3rd time I’ve started looking for a job and it’s scary. I’m not good with stress and I’m not good with change, so getting a job is kind of intimidating. I’m 24 years old and I haven’t ever had one and I need the medical benefits so I’m going to have to jump all the way in and get a full time job. I’ll admit it, I’m terrified of failing. I’m afraid that I’ll let everyone down.
Monday I have an interview with a big name company for what is honestly a dream job for me. I’m trying not to be nervous, but I literally woke up this morning from a dream about the job. this job could change my life for the better, but with my OCD the idea of having to jump right in is terrifying because my whole day stricture will have to change and I won’t have anyone there to talk me through my stress.
Can you all please pray for me to get this job and be able to deal with the stress. If you reading this now, just take a second now and just ask God or who ever you pray to to help guide me and help me adjust to everything that’s going on in my life.
Thank you (oh and sorry for not updating this blog more often, I never have much to talk about so I’ve been slacking)